16.10.05

its been rough.. tons rough.. uncle james jus got back.. met him jus now.. had a drink and a fag wit him jus now.. well he fagged.. haha. looked really dishevelled.. was tellin me i gotta move on. talked for awhile.. yeh.. oh he sent me jo's letter via email.. man.. said alotta stuff..

there's some stuff i gotta put up on this blog.. its a shout out on behalf on jo..
gerry, gui, bro and dai jie: thank you for being there for fang. thank god for all of you. i have never met you guys but i wished i did. fang asked me a couple of times to meet gerry but i've always shyed away from that. i would've loved to meet ya'll, the pple who bring joy to the person i love the most but well, if you get to read this, it would've been obviously too late. i pray that you forgive me for all that i've done. i wish you all the best in everything you do and may god bless you richly. lastly, please take care of fang for me. thank you.
everyone: sorry for taking away the fang everyone knows, for robbing her of her smile and sleep...
fang's next significant other: you have got to be the luckiest girl alive on the planet.. dont let a good thing slip by again like me. please dont mistreat her cos she wont mistreat you, she'll give you all the love she can give. cheerios to that.

yeh. thats bout what she said in the letter.. shit son.. somehow she knew she was gonna buy the farm.. it hurts... it really does.. but she's in a better place.. and i'd rather that. to the family.. thank you guys.. for bein here for me, for tryin to cheer me up, for walkin me thru all this stuff man.. thx alot..

BOOYA!