i wish u din call... now its jus comin to haunt me.. i want the both of us to be happy... but why do we tear each other apart so? i miss u to shit bits.. n yes, i noe u do too.. i love you tons.. n u do too.. but we gotta move on... why do this to me n do this to u? we need to move on baby.. i cant take it anymore. i cant leave my heart wif u, wen its jus tearin me up. i want u but i cant have u. its gone... its gone baby.. we need to stop this. i gotta stop hurtin u n u gotta stop hurtin me too. let me go baby. let me go. we both need to let go. i still love u baby.. but i need to let u go. u suffer each time u think bout me n i suffer each time i think bout u. the pain's jus drivin me insane baby. i cant take it. it would be great if i could call u my girl once again but i cant baby. we cant. i really cant slp wen i think bout u. all the what if's appear in my head n its killin me. i may sound selfish but i cant help it baby. i noe i have to let u go n it hurts me from the depths of my soul. all i ask is to let me go. i cant take it wen u hurt yerself over me. u noe that dun u? at the same time i gotta learn to let u go. u forced it on me the other time baby. i think its time we came to a consensus on this. i love u so much baby. lets not hurt each other...

rmb the song i used to sing? "i know they say if u love somebody, you should set them free..." yeh... baby, lets sort this out tgth. lets not force ourselves to do the extreme. i really hurt wen u left wifout a word. but i cant blame u.. it was for the best of both of us... but now.. we gotta deal wif it. baby, i love u.. so much.. n i wrote a song for u..

For the past hour I've laid in bed awake,

Feelin this weight on my chest is too much to take,

Too much to take.

It engulfs me so much that I cant breathe,

Wonderin how much time I have left to live,

Left to live.

With my eyes bloodshot and hurting,

Is it cos I can't sleep or am I crying,

Or am i crying?

I cant sleep, when I'm thinkin bout you,

I cant do anything, when I'm feelin blue.

Staring, into thin space I wait,

Wishin you wouldn've left me, in this state.

It tears me up from deep within

But I know i need to get rid of this feeling,

Of this feeling.

I can't get what I want all the time,

So wait I shall for the right person

And get out of this hole of slime,

Cos I know there's always a sunshine in the horizon.

I cant sleep, when I'm thinkin bout you,

I cant do anything, when I'm feelin blue.

Staring, into thin space I wait,

Wishin you wouldn've left me, in this state.

Not a single kiss goodbye we exchanged,

I really felt twisted and deranged.

Now you're gone from my sight and grasp,

Cant even watch you like a nice handicraft.

I cant sleep, when I'm thinkin bout you,

I cant do anything, when I'm feelin blue.

Staring, into thin space I wait,

Wishin you wouldn've left me, in this state.

(15 july 2005)