2.7.05

hey mates.... finished terms today... relieved man.. i guess? yeh. i can totally concentrate on track now.. so yeh.. its cool. u can see how much priority im puttin on track instead of terms.. this week i still went for trng lahz.. ahha. not bad. yeh. gettin a bit jumpy for track. yeh. cant wait.. but then again, i can wait. stuff's been happenin.. quite happy. yeh.

today there was passion ac... wow.. same like love mg. not bad not bad. worship was cool n all.. n the sermon was kinda apt.. but towards the end of passion ac.. WOW... like u noe, the time where they ask u to come fwd and all.. wow.. wow. pastor b was callin out for pple for diff categories.. i din feel as tho i needed to go out.. but all of a sudden i jus said to myself, Lord, if gerry goes, i'll go up( as in to pray for her). that was like for the 2nd category.. but wen the 3rd grp was called fwd, it changed to Lord, if xians go up, i'll go up.. and i tell u.. she went up. i trailed her n yeh.. prayed for her. really proud of her. it takes alot for pple to go up like that.

we knelt down and i jus commited her to God and then i prayed for her.. and then gerry came n she prayed for xians as well.. damn cool. damn cool. and then i cant rmb what song came on. i felt as tho i was lacking sumth in God. and all of a sudden, i heard the word "Fall". so i jus fell. i had to talk to God.. but i jus couldn't. instead, all that came out, was Lord, speak to me. i said that line over and over again. and then i said Lord, tell me how i can serve u more, in the ministry or wherever.. i kept sayin those 2 lines... over and over again. it was the oly 2 things in my mind.. and then, claris came to pray for me.. and i felt God speak to me thru her.. she said a lot of things, but the stuff that really stuck, was "God, speak to her.. and yes Lord, ur tellin her that u love her alot"(they always say that, but this time, i really felt it, not hear it), "U've given her a lot of frens Lord, let her face shine on them Lord"... wow... he jus answered my 2 qns man.. the Lord answers.. whilst she was prayin, and as everythin unwrapped, i was jus laughing.. and laughing. i was laughin out loud.. dun ask me why, dun ask me how.. i was jus so... overwhelmed? wow. amanda told me l8r that it's holy laughter... yeh.. WOW man. WOW.

gd thing gerry kinda like got me ta go for passion ac.. i felt abit obligated in the beginning, but then i started to realize that my performance yest and today is God-given.. i should return sumth back. all He wants.. is jus that little time. and yes. thank you God, for everything. even the things that went wrong b4. it doesn matter. thank you God, for my frens. amen.

BOOYA!