18.5.05

in PW now... and andre's pissing me off.. piss me off... keeps pressin the keyboard.. bah.. hahahah... done wif PI.. yay.... im sure lah. doin GPP... quite full of shit.. not the concept... but the idea of doin PW.. bleah.. its damn pissoffable.. or scroffable.. bah!

Trng l8r... my back hurts lah.. im damn friggin scared... sigh.. i gotta really look after my back man. arrrgghh!!! i hope its not a case of deja vu again lahz.. i really wanna throw well man.. do my best for acjc... trng wif them for like 4 yrs lah.. and like all the times wen i throw for comps, i've kinda let jiao lian down.. if its not me throwin properly, it would be becos of some crapped up injury i sustain at the last minute... its psychologically damn shit draining. i am damn downright shit determined to make this a good yr... n so for next yr.. i've planned out stuff for this next mth till nats in july..

Shot put: keep a consistent throwing distance of 8.5 m for june... if i can.. a miracle could potentially happen in july.. but then again,.. any miracle could happen. hahha.
Discus: throw a consistent 27,28m by end of june.. that distance should really disrupt priscilla's flow for the event.. gotta train man.. gotta train..

im not concerned bout positioning.. i've changed my mindset on that issue already.. so yeh. thx to gerry.. haha. i realized that if i set my eyes on a distance, instead of a position.. i'll be challenging myself.. not so much so as an opponent.. and we all know that our biggest opponent is ourselves.. so yep. distance.. not position.. i wanna train my best.. i wanna throw my best... so i wont have regrets man...

after season... it would be major diet time manz.. goin on a water diet.. lose the fats, gain the muscles.. lets hope that really helps lah.. n dat i dun overpush myself.. cos me n jiao lian's damn worried that by losing too much weight, i'll lose my power and strength.. so yeh. there's gotta be a fine line between losing weight and being serverely anorexic or sumth.. haha. me?! anorexic?! dats a funny idea man... i cant imagine myself skinny.. hahahhahahah!!! not saying that i wanna be skinny.. its great to be big size u noe.. jus not too big.. power derives from being big.. its almost a natural thing.. yeh.. body mass n all. i feel inspired... damn inspired.... so jus gotta train hard.. n play hard.. wen THE day comes... jus throw my hardest.. if god wills, whatever that comes, come.. c'est la vie.. wotcher mates... gotta run back to GPP...

BOOYA!